Dramaturgical Metaphor
”Blessed is he who has learned to admire but not envy, to follow but not imitate, to praise but not flatter, and to lead but not manipulate”
~ William Arthur Ward
I’m in the edge of giving up one of my dreams or set it aside for now. Not only was it hard to be a student every Tuesday and Thursday and Supervisor/ Team Leader for the rest of the week. I barely get enough rest. I don’t have the freedom every normal student has – Time.
There are journals that I cannot submit because I get drained by office works, coaching, listening to my agents ranting, helping out people and I’m left with none. However, this is not an excuse. At the end of the day, “If you want something, you’ll do what it takes to get it. If you don’t want it, there’s always an excuse no to get or do it” (Kung ayaw may dahilan, kung gusto palaging merong paraan)
So, am I starting to make excuses just so I won’t regret delaying school? Just because things or people doesn’t really go in my favor? After 2 years, can I go away with “I got tired” reason?
I don’t know. Sometimes, I have the tendency to take it all in and haven’t learned how to let go.
I wear different roles everyday and today, I am a student.
Later, I’m a daughter, sister and girlfriend. Tomorrow, a team lead responsible for 16 people. When will I be me? Just Mary. Is that even possible?
I don’t know.
But if there’s one thing I know, it’s that God is in full control. I have full trust in His plans, will, power and love.
And so I wait. 
